Hey Mary,
Make your decsion based on what will make you happy.
Are you happy with him?
It doesn't sound like it.
There is life beyond the chaos.
There really is.
It just doesn't happen all at once.
After you get beyond all the emotion, make a plan.
Every day, do something to put that plan into action.
Be easy on yourself and take this one step at a time.
Hugs,
Gabe