I hope today is a better, easier day for you. Yesterday was hard for me as well. I did not want to use, hardly do anymore, but dealing with my emotions suddenly became very difficult for me. I felt very alone and the whole day felt like one giant anxiety attack. Luckily, I had my group therapy last night and was able to get a few things off my chest. Lately the thought of healing and recovering spiritually seems much more challenging and impossible for me than the thought of not using.