Hey NVRA,
I'm new to the forums and I've read some of your posts and can relate to a lot of what you're feeling.
I don't have any answers, but I'm praying for you. You'll get through this. My son used to leave on Tuesdays and in the beginning, I felt a lot like you feel today. It gets easier. I remember when instead of one day at a time, it was literally one second at a time. Lately, I'm back to the one second at a time. So, just wanted to send some *hugs* your way and let you know we're all pulling for you!
Take care!