I don't know, Hard to put into words really... true recovery... rebuilding my life, my view on the world, what happened, higher power stuff, the true nature of my own addiction... I can't easily share that with someone who hasn't been there, no matter how close that person may be...
It is complicated for sure... I am still working through it... I don't want her pity, not that she'd give it to me
, LOL... hmm, I guess it's just too personal... and you know, my wife can't really help me except to just be there and continue on this journey as we have been together... I want to be her husband... not her alkie or addict or recovered or anything... just me.