Becky B,
The miricle hits the day you wake up and know it is time to do something without worrying about all the reasons why you "SHOULD" quit but realising today is the first day!You said in your post that you dont really want to quit so maybe it is not your time yet.
When the time comes it will be because you are ready to control the addiction not let the addiction control you.
Good luck!Lots of prayers and thoughts your way.