Thanks for your caring reply.
when you love someone it is so hard to let go. I have not been able to do that yet. I do think that is where i will find happiness again. It is so hard to believe that my happiness in going to begin at the end of my marriage. The tears do not come as often, and i see the lies before they are said.
I do feel that i am at those cross roads. I thought i was there a year ago but then the tears were still able to flow.... now not so much.
I guess i was hoping someone could tell me to hold on just a little longer. that this was just a test. that i passed and i would get to have my old life back.
I have read here off and on for the last 6 months. There are a lot of caring people who are willing to give that hand UP. I hope i am now strong enough to grab it!