I just wanted to thank you all for your replies and just reading such a long post. I am on the way soon to either the SLH or rehab. I just need to be somewhere safe for awhile where temptation doesn't come my way. I'm not on the corner looking to score or struggling with nightly or weekly drinking but can't seem to resist when it comes my way and doing meth again really scared me. It's not a casual drug. I lived through that nightmare before and got through the opiate nightmare. Now I just need some good brainwashing so I am prepared and can say NO when this stuff comes up because it'll always be around. I know I can do this and my bf is now backing me 100%. I feel very positive about the future after talking with more people and preparing myself for major change. I hope to be back on here soon and supporting others as I have been supported. Thank you again!!