Oh I feel for you sweetie because addiction sucks and you probably know it could be over. I finally reached the "It's Over" this past January. It took me a long time to get to that point. I kept hoping and praying he would get help. It did not happen and now after 25 years, it is over. Let the tears flow because it does help and keep posting here. I cried many of nights and looking back now, I realize that is part of the process. Be gentle with yourself and focus on those beautiful innocent children and YOU. Try not to focus on him. He made his choices and he is a grown man.
HUGS TO YOU
