Some research suggests successful change often involves moving through
identifiable stages:
- precontemplation - denial - not aware a problem exists
- contemplation - awareness, but no readiness - thinking, often worrying
- preparation - resolving ambivalence - getting ready for action
- action - edgy but increasingly determined - happy to be moving forward
- maintenance - integrating the change into ordinary life over time
It's not a model that describes everyone, but you sound like you could be in something of a preparation stage -- resolving your ambivalence, getting clearer about wanting something different, pondering how you'll handle the change with hubby and/or others.
Peace and health to you, Becky... you sound like you're on a steady path to a better place, and better health.