Hi Becky,
Entertaining the idea of being sober is a tennis game at first. Should I...shouldn't I...should I....shouldn't I. You're at a cool stage right now where you're questioning the whole idea of drinking. My hats off to you for how much you've accomplished so far. The first solution to solving the problem is admitting you have a problem. The answers will come in time, but you've got a little work to do one minute/hour/day at a time. My prayers are with you today.
Hugs