It's ALL about HIM...
My husband of 3 years is an alcoholic. It's so nice to read these postings....He had me feeling as if I were the only crazy nut wife in the world. But, there is only one statement I have for AH's.....It's NOT all about YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I know what I need to do, by finding my lost self again. It's ALL in my head, the perfect escape from hell. But, to start recovery for myself w/his sickness pouring over me every nite of my life, is so-so-so HARD!!!!!!!!!!!
I role play in my head, how I can make a better life for my children & myself time & time again.....it's just the first step of escaping his sickness that I don't know how to manage?????? Being his support system has long burned out, feelings for him are cold & bitter. I'm sickened to just look at him. The man I fell head over heels in love with....is a true to life monster...! And, this is all my fault? hummmmmm........