(((Lindsay))) - I'm glad you went to the funeral and were welcomed with open arms by his family.
After my XABF died, I realized the last I'd heard from him was when he was in jail, and I'd told him "do not ask me for money, again, I'm not going to give you any" and I never heard from him again.
However, I "talk" to him and I've had some really good days in recovery. I'll "tell him" that I'm going to tuck him into my heart, so he can feel how good recovery is. I truly believe he's watching over me, and he is finally at peace.
It took time for me to get to that point as grief has it's own timetable. Take your time, sweetie, stick to the people who "get it" and ignore those that say "just get over it", as they don't understand.
Hugs and prayers,
Amy