FindingPeace, for me sometimes it helps to look back at what I am not feeling.
I no longer feel sick at my stomach driving home from work at night.
I no longer feel brittle and sick.
I no longer feel guilty for simply going out for a walk to be by myself.
I no longer feel guilty for having hobbies and activities of my own.
I no longer feel despair and rage and many other toxic emotions.
I no longer feel alone even though then I was sitting next to my AW and now I am by myself.
I no longer wake up in the mornings with headaches from grinding my teeth.
I am no longer afraid of the future. A little scared maybe with all the changes but that's it.
I hope this helps ((((hugs))))