42 days, can't tell how I'm doing
So, I make it through every day without alcohol, most days I don't think too much about it or make a big deal. I've now gone to plenty of events where there's alcohol without a big problem. So, from that perspective I suppose it's going OK.
On the flip side, I am moody and depressed a good deal of the time, fairly low energy and tired (I go to sleep most nights right after I put my kid to bed), and have a hard time getting excited about anything at all. I spent several hours yesterday trying to plan something fun to do for our family to do this weekend (we both have a free weekend, which is rare) and honestly, I couldn't come up with a single thing that I felt like doing.
I don't want to go back to drinking, I just wish I didn't feel so sad and bored. I guess I spent so much time looking forward to opportunities to drink that now I can't find any enthusiasm inside me for anything. Perhaps this is just what my new life is going to be like. :-(
Plus I am hungry all the time. I've always had to watch my weight and have already gained 10 pounds since I quit drinking, so I try not to substitute eating for drinking, but it's a drag to always be wanting food.
Feeling very sorry for myself today. Don't want to drink. Just feeling super down.