Your side of the street is clear, you have asked for or done anything to feel guilty about.
His side of the street is riddled with pot holes. Keep in mind that addicts are master manipulators, after awhile you will believe that you in fact are the problem, although you are not.
Many addicts are very good at reading woman who are lonely, bored or vunerable. Me, I believe I was bored, man did that change after I met him...I was never bored again, I was on a super duper fast rollercoaster ride that I couldn't wait to get off of. It was one crazy way to live. I am so happy that part of my life is over.
Enjoy your meeting, I know that it will help!