BobbyJ! I've missed you and your cheetah pants!
You are hostage because you are letting it take you hostage. You know you did the right thing even though it was not what you wanted. Rarely is doing the right thing what we want to do. And...going to AA with him? WTH? Does that make a lick of sense to you?
Remember, "what other people think of me is none of my business" - even on that damn facebook, which seems to be nothing but trouble given the posts here lately.
Stay strong, my friend! You didn't break him, you can't fix him. All you can do is put on your rain coat when the poo starts flying.