BobbyJ

Well this weekend I went to a outdoor function. Pictures were taken of me and someone put them on that stupid facebook.

XAH see's them and of course today, I get the phone calls of:
GUILT, The wedding vows, Do you miss me, Im not being honest

then in conversations over the weekend with friends, they ask
me: Well, he is sick, how could you just divorce him? Didnt you
go to AA with him? Wow, I would help my husband, Im sure
he would of done better if you would have supported him more

FREAKING: GUILT sets in and here I sit bawling

I feel I did the best I could. It was his decision to move away and
continue to drink his life away.

Yes, I miss the man I married, that makes me sad
No, I dont tell him that I miss him when he ask

I know I cant fix him, cure him or control him

But why is the guilt taking me for a hostage ride today?