I have been going to church for over three months on Monday's and Wednesdays.......This was like a church my husband grew up in......I was always stubborn and wouldnt go there, because i was raised differently....
After everything that we have been through as a couple, I was willing to try anything that was of a positive nature to regain or salvage what we could of our marriage.....I found that I really like his church and I really like the minister alot.....his sermons have been quite uplifting and inspirational.......the last couple of weeks I have been talking with my husband about getting baptized.......I told my husband that I was ready to give my life to God and that was before last Sundays service..
When we went to Church that following Sunday, I always fill out the attendance card......(Guests) and I also put a prayer request in for my father-in-law and so I gave it to my husband to look over.....I didnt pay much attention to what he was doing after that I was listening to the sermon........I guess he flipped the card over and checked off that he was interested in baptism.......
Minister came up to me last night and was discussing with me the attendance card and how I am interested in baptism.....of course I looked baffled and somehow things became a whirl wind and I ended up agreeing that I would step forward this Wednesday and get baptized.........after the minister went away I looked at my husband and I said to him why did you do that to me........he explained that he didnt know that the minister would come up to me tonight and ask me to get baptized..........I told my husband okay, fine.........but did he also know that you are not baptized and that you are not a member of this church tooo........My husband told me that the minister must have assumed that he was already a member and that is why he was directing the converstion toward me........
I have been talking alot about it with my husband, but I told my husband that I wanted to be sure first and I would like to have a meeting with the minister and get some questions answered......so my husband told me he would go fix this for me and tell the minister I wasnt ready tonight......I was having a very hard time after all that had happened focusing on the sermon........(it was bible study on Wednesday and the minister doesnt teach that night it is usually a Elder) but I was having a hard time concentrating and I decided to get up and leave.........I needed to go for a walk or go to the bathroom.......anything........(In my mind this was the last thing I wanted pressure for......I wanted this to be a decision based on what I wanted and believed in) somehow that all was screwed up..............
Anyway, as I left the main area and went into the hallway.......guess who was out there.....the minister talking to a different elder.........he came up to me and started to ask me questions.........I then perceded that to tell him that I would like to set up an appointment with him for myself and my husband since neither one of us were baptized......he of course says go get your husband right now and we can meet in my office........I did just that
When we were in there in started off by asking if either one of us were married before.........I of course said yes.......(my husband first marriage) he was telling me that the only way I was excused in God's eyes from getting a divorce from my first husband was cheating, abandoment from the marriage.........bla bla bla......he asked me if my husband cheated and I said yes.........(cause he did)....he then said then in the bible God okay's divorce in those circumstances........the minister said that if I wouldnt have left him for the reasons that God has said, that I would have to leave my husband now, because everyday I was committing adultry...........If I would have left for the wrong reasons it wouldnt have been a spiritual marriage with my husband now and that we would need to seperate.........and according to the bible I would never be able to remarry again...... WOW
Since my first husband did cheat.......It was okay.........but I didnt tell the minister my whole life story lastnight in the 45 minutes we were in there talking to him..........I made alot of horrible mistakes with my first husband........he was not all wrong and I may have cheated on him first.........I dont know........my first husband went to strip clubs and watched porn all the time......but we ended up divorced anyway..........and I cant say who did what to who worse.........If anything I may have been worse...........
My question is in God's eyes is my second marriage a second marriage in God's eyes or am I daily committing adultry with my husband???????? Am I ever going to be right in Gods eyes............