Buelah - you are a rock!
I know the time will come one day. Its not that I don't love him or have feelings for him, its just never been a complete relationship. It was out of convenience not love and respect as I've had in the past. I can't say I made a mistake because I have the most precious things in my life right now my babies. I know if he ever raised a hand to any one of us I would call the police and I already have the lawyer on speed dial
, although he's threatened when drunk, not on my children but me of course. I think the more I'm sober, the better he will try to be. I honestly am too soon in this recovery to think about changing this marriage right now like you say. The stronger I am, the better decisions I will make and NOBODY will ever be able to say in a court that I'm a drunk and can't have my kids. I will be the strong one!
All good things....