FLsunshine, ((((hugs))))
I've just separated from my wife of 36 years. The 1st 20 or so were pretty darn good the last 15 or 16 have been varying circles of hell.
Does she love me now. I don't think so. Did she love me at one time, yes, I'm very sure of it. I don't know at what point the love was replaced by alcohol, xanax and sleeping pills but it has been.
So, I'm willing to bet as some part he loved you. However today is what you have to deal with. So what are YOU going to do about it? Doesn't sound like you are getting much out of this relationship.
Your friend,