Yeah I know that really, some days I can look at things in a more rational way than others though. I really want to start going to meetings, but I'm in a bit of a state of limbo at the minute. I'm abroad with family and I don't have a stable address until late August. I was supposed to be going to stay with him for a bit in 2 weeks or so until I have somewhere to live but I'm trying to sort out other arrangements with friends because things feel too up in the air. I thought he hadn't touched it for months so the fact that he's still struggling with it and that he's been lying for so long has kind of thrown me
It's just hard not knowing what's going on with anything.