Originally Posted by
stoptheworld 
I guess it's because I love him so much that I don't want to feel like I'm abandoning him? That the lying and everything else is because of his addiction and that it's nothing personal and that if he sorts out his problems then all that stuff will just go away?
Even just typing that looks so stupid and deluded.
Just so confused. Today is a bad day. I think I must rely on him in some way as well because I've been really depressed lately. I don't want to be like this anymore.
You're not abandoning him. There is plenty of help out there for addicts! I certainly found it!
The drug usage is just a symptom. Thinking that if they just stop using and everything will be fine isn't realistic.
My disease is threefold-physical, emotional/mental, and spiritual. If I don't address all three areas, I will use again guaranteed.
Recovery is hard work, and sometimes people
don't change even if they quit. They are still a$$holes. I've been around the rooms of recovery since 1986, and I've seen it happen.
Have you checked into any Alanon meetings yet?