what I won't miss:
-being a lousy parent who must've stank of alcohol
-blackouts
-hangovers
-wondering if my kids heard my drunk talk on the phone
-checking txt messages and emails the next day to see if I'd sent any
-not remembering conversations I had and having to ask questions to try to put together the events of the previous night
-yelling at my kids (which I very rarely do now)
-drinking at EVERY event there was...birthdays, graduations, weddings, funerals, first communions, confirmations, anything...
-finding out I had a fatty liver after having a sonogram and lying about my alcoholism to my doctor
-lying to myself
-lying to others
-calling in sick with a "migraine"
-going to different liquor stores to "hide" how much I was drinking
-needing the "hair of the dog" the next day to feel normal again
-the endless mornings of promising myself that I would stop today....and then drinking again
-getting behind the wheel of a car and wondering if it was okay (yeah, I did it)(thanks be to God that no one was ever hurt!)
-how STUPID I acted