Hi Dave, so glad you are back and I'm so sorry about your Day 1 but as Laylady said, it's exceptional for any alcoholic (or any addict) to get it right on the very first try. It's been 10 long years for me struggling with everything from heroin to alcohol to pills. But I haven't lost hope, I still believe it is possible. I'm back to Day 3 myself going thru opiate w/d's so don't beat yourself up. You CAN do this and you are worth it.
I hope you have found a new dr. since...pissed me off to read that.
Anyway, I truly hope you find your recovery. We will always be here to listen and support you.
Keep coming back to post
-Jess