Went back & read your post again......
I would like to invite you to go back & read my earlier post, of when
my Xah was in early recovery....
His early recovery did not mix well with my early recovery
Left me feeling lonely, scared, frustrated, sad, let alone lots of depression...
Its like putting your bare foot into murkey water...Scarey to think what is underneath
Hell, life would be easier, if we could see the bottom of the lake....
To me, fear....falls under the category of "LET GO & LET GOD"
Think of what YOU need to let go & let God....Make a list, write them on paper,
thrash them thru your head over and over. Eat, sleep and REPEAT of what
you need to let go & let God...No one else can do it for you. We are here
to support you, and share our tools, just like alanon classes. But you
are the only one who can pick up the tools and use them on your head, heart, soul,
and life...
If you think your going to jump into one single alanon class or jump onto this
website one time and be healed and be happy....99.9% chance it wont work..
I did that at first, and boy was I so wrong!
It took alot of years for me to get this screwed up,
and Im working hard to fix me....Its not easy everyday, but its progress
and over 7 months, Im pretty damn proud of myself!!!
Hope you work the program, inside & out of your heart...It does work!
But you are the only one who can make it work!
Just like the alcoholic, no one can make them sober. They are the only ones
who can do that for themselves.
The rule applies to you too!!
So hopefully, you will get busy & fix YOU!!!
Love Yourself enough to do it today!!!
Peace & Joy is awaiting you, go find it in a Alanon class!!!