losing my family
I know I am not better than anyone else but the fact that I am losing my family and that my alcoholic husband has chosen to push me away now that he is in early recovery is really killing me. Now I have to share my 3 year old daughter. I didn't choose this. Why do I ever have to be without her? I will share because I wouldn't use her, but I hate him for doing this to me and our family. He just gets off so easy...running away while I am left to deal alone, and devastated, humiliated. He has taken so much of me and I have let him. I have this feeling in my gut and I am sick to my stomach. Why can he just do this to all of us with no consequences. He said in his early recovery he is realizing he never wanted to be married or have kids with me? My whole life was a lie? I really feel like I am hollow inside.