I just woke up and it feels like a dream. I am just looking at my beautiful 3 year old girl who literally said last night "Daddy left us again". I am not going to put her through this anymore. I am alone and I guess this is meant to be. I tried for so long to be there for him and be a good wife but at the end of the day he continued to choose a path of self loathing and self sabatoge. Today is Day 1 all over again...the day when you feel like you just got hit by a train. That's how I feel. I know I am better off but the pain is here.