Tues,
Early sobriety is a buffet of emotions... to put it mildly. I really do not envy where you are right now. I remember how it was... all I have to offer in this difficult time for you is to trust sobriety. No matter how loud the screams for alcohol are, just trust that sobriety WILL always be better. I know that is hard to feel sometimes.
I would not trade what I have for a bottle. I would rather drop dead than to live bottle to bottle to bottle. Stick around!!