your right, today is better. i had a bad night but today feels better. I feel over the hump and can start to concentrate on the mental side of the dependency.
thanks for the responses. i'm glad i'm doing this, i so want my life back and want so much more for my girl.
As for support...i dont have much but my husband...her dad is here so, although he's working and i'm looking after her alot he is here at night and this weekend which has helped. He does know but does not understand and isn't really that supportive that 'i let myself get into this mess'.
yoga and meditation are helping in the small windows of reprieve that i have