It's completely normal to feel the way you do, but what good will come of you seeing him?
He hears you are not feeling well, and he uses that opportunity to appeal to you when you are most vulnerable. In my opinion, seeing him will only set you back in your recovery. Back to day 1...but if you can get through the pain on your own, it will go away, and stay away.
Our As are our addiction, and we don't need them to feel good, just like they don't alcohol to feel good.
It's only been a month, go easy on yourself. Of course you feel this way, but it does get better, it really does.
That said, when you are ready to be done, you will be done. Do what feels right to you right now. That's all any of us can do
