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Old 06-12-2011, 03:37 AM
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lizisme
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Im not sure its about how many times you hit it, its more like how hard you actually hit it that makes the difference. Ive hit lots of bottoms, but I know this one was different. I was physically, mentally, spiritually spent. Yeah sure I was all those times before too. What was different with this bottom? Acceptance. I accepted I literally cannot drink...like a 'normal' person. Its just not me, never has been, never will be. I accept that and I learn to live my life soberly. Absolutely its been terribly hard being sober, i've thought many times 'if this is what sober feels like id rather be killing myself as a drunk'. But that's cos I was that drunk, and I had to learn how to live in the real world, with the real me and figure out who that real me is and be ok with that. Im still working on it but DAM am I grateful to be sober :-)
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