Thank You.
This was a big aha moment for me. But there was someone else who said that they had to put away all the reminders of the marriage. I know I have been clinging to mine. I still can't bring myself to take off my wedding ring. I know the only obstacle is my own unwillingness to accept and change.
It is admitting defeat.
There is an enormous void left in my life when we separated, and I am trying my best to fill that void with things that make me happy. Friends, trying new things, new activities, but I also know that I am reluctant to totally fill it. I feel like I need to leave a space for him in case he comes back. I don't think that is healthy for me.
What am I afraid of?
Maybe that there will no longer be room in my life for him.
Obsessive thinking continues...but at least now it is more focused on me and my motives.
Progress not perfection.