I wish we could star this post for people to read, the ones who insist that things will eventually get better with their A. It ALWAYS gets worse without recovery. Your story is perfect evidence of that. I hope more newbies read this, and realize where they are headed.
Glad you came back, not happy you had to, but glad you did. I will agree with Cyranoak, whatever everyone told you before, it's all going to be the same now.