WTBH I just wanted to say I believe you and I would be willing to bet there are quite a few others on here that do to! I'm sorry you have to see their faces at DD graduation, but I would sit as far away from them as you can and have as little contact with them as you can. The cooler you are the better.
I also hear ya on the -I'm tired of working my program and being all positive- I frankly am just tired of having to think about addiction and alcoholics at all right now. It would be great if we could just take a break from it all, a little vacation....but that is not going to happen at least not right now for either of us. I'd really like to have just a "normal" life...whatever that is.
Good luck on the job search. Chin up, you can do it!