Kell,
I have shoved my sadness down for so long and pretended it wasn't there that I think by the time I figured out that there was help in the world for me and that I wasn't alone I must have cried enough for the whole neighborhood.
I believe that the tears are part of the process and if you feel sad it's OK to cry. Sometimes you just need to cry. I try not to wallow in self-pity and that has been a learning process for me too.
When I get impatient I just remember that it took me a long time to get this sad and feel this out of control, it will take just as long to heal.
As has been said many times to me by people here, be kind to yourself. Give yourself some time to heal and work through the tears by working on the steps in your own way and in your own time and you will slowly see a change. The tears will come less frequently and you'll start to feel other emotions again, it just takes time.
Hugs!
Marci