Kell -
When I first came here and first started my recovery, I felt the same way. For me, it was all about actually seeing the real world for what it was. I was stopping my denial and my excuses. Seeing and admitting the truth was hard. It was sad. I felt bad for a while.
Then, I decided that I could either go back to pretending everything was OK or I could move forward to find a better way to live. I moved forward and haven't looked back. I'm not sad anymore.
L