I hate dealing with feelings.
I realised I dont have that many friends that I can do other stuff with than drinking alcohol.
I am struggling with lots of feelings this weekend as well. I think I have been drinking a lot to avoid dealing with that. I feel lonely. I hate my weight and dont believe anyone could fall in love with me right now. I have low self esteem as well so trying to go out and make new friends is difficult. Alcohol somehow makes that easier. I never even thought I was drinking to avoid feeling sad or lonely. It was just a habit. I liked getting wasted on weekends.
During the week I keep my self quite busy and enjoy relaxing in front of the tv at night. But at weekends I want to drink.
So this stopping drinking for me will be harder than I think.I started going to the gym a lot to loose weight and to fight of the boredom and depression. But I still hate feeling those feelings that I am having right now.