Thank You
I just got home from work and logged on here hoping that maybe someone had replied. I am overwhelmed at the number of heart felt responses. It surpassed anything I had anticipated and I am really touched that so many would take the time to help a stranger.
More specifically, it feels reassuring that many of you relate to what I am saying. I tried to explain it to my doctor and he looked at me like I had two heads. I think he thought that if he indulged my rational I would use that as an excuse to go hit the liquor store or a bar but my objectives are/were quite the opposite. I left his office feeling ashamed, out of control and helpless. Reading these posts I feel empowered. As one of you put it, I want to get to that place where I don't want to drink again as opposed to I can never drink again. Thinking in the terms of "drinking again is another days decision" is making abstaining much easier and I'm already remembering and experiencing all the positives that come with sobriety.
Thank you all so much.