My Rock bottom is coming i can feel it.
I'm over trying to find a sober time to talk to AW only to realise there is no sober time.
it started when we had fights for 2 nights in a row over stupid stuff that didnt matter and didn't make sense.
i started writing in my journal and i asked myself the question. am i in an abusive relationship. i left the book on the coffee table to get myself a drink and heard her stirring. so i ran back to hid the book in case she was coming to the lounge.
thats when i first realised that yes at times it is an abusive relationship, then i started looking at what made it abusive, and saw that it was the alcohol.
then when we had another fight last night and she called me a bad father, thank fully i had been reading here and was able to get the courage to not let her push me around because her emotions were all over the place. i tried to detach as much as possible. (not easy at the beginning).
but was proud of myself, I'm getting there one step at a time