Welcome, Freebird - How was court today? I'm glad you found this forum and are ready for some changes. We'll support you all the way, so keep reading and posting.
It's scary. It feels strange at first to be sober. It's like learning to play an instrument - practice, practice, practice. Making that choice to stay sober over and over again exercises a new muscle in our brain. We have to start with the right notes before we can play a great song. But it will come if we keep at it.
Keep going - you can do this!:ghug3