Originally Posted by
Shellcrusher 
I'm still pissed at myself though. Between my last post and the time I got home, my resolve was getting weak. I got home and felt like I really didn't want to do what must be done. Then this happened and even now after typing so much, I feel better. I know I feel better because I'm sharing and emptying my frustrations but something inside of me is getting weak again. Gah! That is maddening to the extreme.
I understand. Take It Easy on yourself. You are clearly doing the best that you can. I think this is all part of the process of letting go - it's not a straight line.
Originally Posted by
Shellcrusher I have never openly prayed before. Bear witness to me handing my life over to my HP.
God, I pray for the strength to do the next right thing. Let me move forward towards normalcy and peace. Please don't let me be seduced into false hopes. Help me take action to protect me and my son.
I do so bear witness; I'm praying with you.