Hang in there Freebird and good luck tomorrow in court.
I knew I had to quit drinking for good because alcohol always created problems and there were always consequences when we mixed company. It wasn't fun anymore. There was always; shame, embarrassment, bruises, scratches, hangovers, etc the following day. You can quit.
You can do this. "One day at a time." Just decide that you will not drink today and just live in that day. Then repeat again for the next day. Do not think about, not drinking forever. Before you know it, months past then almost two years for me. So glad my bringe drinking days are over. I don't even miss it.