I spit fire ... and am trying to let it go
He literally told me about the "sacrifices" he had made by going to the treatment center, staying at the treatment center, and "giving up a life of leisure."
He backtracked when I said "really? And I haven't made any sacrifices?"
Apparently, RAH considers "showing effort" and thus showing love as the following:
1. Looking for a job
2. Going into treatment
3. Staying in treatment
4. The aforementioned lack of leisure
I have not been showing effort even though I:
1. Pay the bills
2. Continue to hold a job
3. Do not drink
My lack of affection is bothering me but he "hasn't even approached the subject" because he "knows better." Does he not realize how my faith and trust have been shaken to the core?
Yet today, while sitting in the middle of tornadoes, all I wanted was for him to be there on my business trip so I could feel safe.
WTF is wrong with me?