He is reading because he is snooping into what I am saying. He fully admits he is an A, has for 8 years. He has found recovery for short periods but nothing on a long term basis. At this point I just don't have much hope left that things will change. Maybe there is a miracle coming but I sure can't plan on that. While my AH is reading here I sure hope he is also reading the A's page of those who are on their way to recovery. Thanks again to all for the support!