There is a reason for everything...a reason why you felt the need to do that...a reason why it didn't work and a reason why your life is worth living.
There have been many times in my past 30 years that I shouldn't have made it...almost overdosed on coke, drunk driving, driving on acid, etc etc etc....I now know that my life is too precious to waste. Everyone has a reason and a time. It's not your time. Please please seek the appropriate help. And please come back to us so we know you're ok.
Wishing you peace and strength.