I really hope you resisted PS.
Getting sober isn't easy. It takes a lot of hard work...and yeah, we really do miss that instant respite.
It's easy to say - I'll just have a weekend off - but it doesn't always work like that. I once lost 2 years of my life because I decided to have a night off and 'relax'.
Your addiction is doing the talking right now. It's not a good idea on any level for you to drink today, and every time we drink we validate and consolidate those insane ways of thinking a little more.
You already know whats back that way - I hope you'll give this way a chance.
I know it's your birthday - happy birthday - be kind to yourself....
start the year the right way...
If you're still reading, smash those bottles, and come and sit on SR for as long as you need to
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