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Old 05-19-2011, 11:03 AM
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Redmayne
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Rock bottoms, mmnnnn...

As has been portrayed by a numberof people already, 'rockbottoms' come in all sorts of shapes and sizes, and in my case I always hoped, prayed even that this was the one! It neverhappened, there was to be no life changing, life affirming moment.

Tell you what did happen though, when I stopped trying to be 'Master of my own Destiny' running on that old favourite, 'self will' and finally, beaten near sensless, so debilitated by alcohol I could only crawl on my belly to my bed where I cried out to the god of my understanding for reliease from my suffering, I 'let go and let God', I got better, and entered into sobriety.

Now, nobody has to go that far, in fact I hope you don't have to, , the Big Book' says,'those who THOROUGHLY follow our path', so all you have to do is pick up the simple kit of spiritual tools, hand your life, will and direction over to the god of your understanding and let it happen.

A life run on self will is no life, and stifles any attempt at recovery.
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