You don't really get to 'try again' like it's some new hope or new beginning. It's not trying at all. It's choosing alcoholism over real life. Choosing to drink and simultaneously picking a new stop date may feel like progress (it sure did to me when I did it) but it's not, really. It's just another trick your alcoholic mind is playing.
I think if you gave sobriety a real chance you would love it.