Hiya Pumpkin-
This, coming on here to SR and posting about it is a good thing.
...but coming on here, and asking how to not drink today would be even better.
Make no mistake about it - there is power in the asking for help.
How about just going the next few hours without drinking? Then take it from there?
(and nothing to be sorry about to us anyway. We understand, but what would you say to someone else who posted this?)
You're worth sobriety.
Kjell~