my disease does not live in a bottle.it lives between my ears,speaks to me in my own voice and it always lies.i dont have to be drinking to display the symtoms of my disease.Irritability,impatience,reluctance and critisizing others are just a few of my old behaviors that manifest themselves whenever i stop maintaining my sobriety and i stop maintaining my sobriety when i stop going to meetings,stop working my steps,stop calling my sponsor,stop getting with my higher power,stop working with others.My recovery is not a spectator sport.I have to work at it every day for the rest of my life or i will die. Peter.